Loss

Charlene died. She was like my . She had Alzheimer's. She was like an aunt to me
when I was growing up. She was my foster mother's cousin, and they were raised together. I think she felt what I was feeling. Since she grew up without her mom. Her mother drowned trying to save someone else. So I think she felt for me. Every time I would see her she would have something special for me. Or do something speacial with me. Trips to the tea house in Colorado. We would all get dressed up and eat cucumber sandwiches and have tea. Speacial shopping trips. Going to visit her was so much fun. I was even in two of her daughters wedding as the flower girl.

I don't know if she ever knew the effect she had on my life. She will be missed.

I also lost my cousin David Muchmore. I did not know him well. From not growing up in my birth family. He was my mother's 1/2 brothers son. He was a very sweet loving guy. I know he is in Heaven. I hope he is running through heaven having the time of his life. He could not do what all the other kids did when he was younger. I hope he is experiencing it now.

We also lost Chopper. My friends big dog. He was a big love dog. Mongo misses him, too. Chopper was the third loss of the year and it put me in a deep funk that I found hard to pull out of. But I have, The sun came out so that helped alot.

So this year there have been four signifigant losses. I hope there are not more to come.